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Saying Goodbye by AmalaNyoka, literature

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Saying Goodbye

On my knees, Begging you to stay. Tears run down my bloodshot eyes, The color in my flesh has faded. Your helpless look tells me we cant win, You pull me into your arms. Feeling my heart break, You hold me tighter. My head against your chest, You whisper "I promise its not over." You wipe away my tears, Another tear runs down my cheek. Looking into your eyes my fears are gone, Gently our lips meet. Holding me again, I study your heart beat. The steady beat is hypnotizing, Closing my eyes I forget the problem. My mind goes numb, You kiss my head. I try to memorize your smell, I start to cry

The Mask by AmalaNyoka, literature

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The Mask

I am me, You cant accept that. You take shame in me, Disown me. I embarrass you, So I wear this mask. This mask is your shield, A shield that hides who I am. You tell me to be me, But then you block me. This mask is choking me, Your mask suffocates me. I take the mask off and I am me, You knock me down. So I wear this mask, You forget its on. I mold to your mask, Your expectations. I'm still not good enough, I am who you've made. You throw me down like a used rag doll, I am what you wanted. But you are one fucked up bastard, Your still not satisfied. you've molded me so many times,

Pain or Love by AmalaNyoka, literature

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Pain or Love

Torn soul Broken hearted In love Or is it in pain? I call your name, You stare at me as if you can't hear. I scream at the top of my lungs, But I am drowning. I beg you to save me, Crying for you. You turn your back to me, Your cold shadow hangs. They say love is happy, Where is the happiness of this? I gave you my heart, You threw it back. I should fucking hate you, But I don't. Is this love, Or is it torture?

Shadow on the Floor by AmalaNyoka, literature

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Shadow on the Floor

My heart calls out, You ignore. My hear breaks, You break it more. Fragile like glass, It shatters on the floor. Blood runs by, You watch the rivers pour. Sharp pieces drip with blood, You let it bleed with your shadow on the floor. i scream in pain, you dont hear. i beg for you, cry for you. i reach for you, all i get is your shadow on the floor.

Lost in Your Eyes by AmalaNyoka, literature

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Lost in Your Eyes

Your flesh touches mine, warm soft hand grazes my face. you lean towards me, I'm lost in your eyes. warmth rushes from your lips to mine, I seem to melt like the cold morning frost at dawn. time has surrendered, seconds last for minutes. i am lost, the world around us is nonexistent. as your tongue reaches mine, your lips send shivers down my spine. Time has lost all meaning, All that matters is here and now. You slowly pull away, The world around us has become existent. But it seems so surreal, I am lost in your eyes.

Lonely Dreams by AmalaNyoka, literature

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Lonely Dreams

you entered my life, and followed me into my dreams. looking into your eyes, i am comfortably lost. i try to reach you, then i wake up. i can still hear you whispering in my ear, curse the cold emptiness of my room. i can feel you, the warmth of your body. your arms around me, your lips brush against my neck. i stare into the darkness, i cant get you out of my mind. i want you here, to hold me not just in my sleep.

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My Heart Is Dead by AmalaNyoka, literature

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My Heart Is Dead

I see you with her and I get mad, But in my heart I just get sad. I see you with her and I start to cry It almost makes my want to die. I start to listen to my heart, I realize how much we've grown apart. And then in my mind I start to dread, The fact that in my heart I'm dead. At night I lay in my bed Thinking of all that I have read. I try to put you in my past, But you just keep come up too fast. I try and try and try to find Something that will change the thoughts in mind. I think of many different things, But something inside me rings. It tells me that no matter what is said In my heart I'll always be dead. My love for

My Love For You by AmalaNyoka, literature

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My Love For You

My eyes look out and yours meet mine, My heart melts and my body shakes. I know we've never meet before but there's a trance I cant get free from, My mind says I don't know you my heart says other wise. You tell me your name although I'm only partly listening, your amazing eyes got me in a trance. You ask me my name and you make me blush by telling me I'm beautiful. We start to talk and then you say the words I want to hear. You ask out me and me knees get weak. You come pick me up for our first date, I laugh inside when I see how nervous you are. You try to hide how nervous you are but the little mistakes tell me that you are, I

My Life by AmalaNyoka, literature

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My Life

You tell me I can live my life how I want, And you say its ok to make mistakes. When I screw up once, just once The one time I make a mistake and you get mad Its as if my whole world came down into pieces when I made that one mistake. I make one mistake and you take control of my life. My life the life you said I can live how I want you take control. Well now my life is in my control and the knife is in my hand. My life is in my hands, you can not stop me. As I drag the knife across my arm it hurts. It hurts just like you hurt me. The yelling, the anger in your voice, It hurt me. As I keep dragging the knife across my arm the pai

Nobody by AmalaNyoka, literature

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Nobody

I walk nobody sees. I talk nobody listens. I sing nobody hears. I scream nobody cares. I cry nobody helps. I hurt nobody heals. I want to die nobody would stop me. I grab the gun nobody pulls it away. I load it nobody takes the bullets away. I put the gun to my head sombody pulls the gun away and asks who I am. I look at them and say I am nobody then puts the gun to my head and pull the trigger.

Your gone by AmalaNyoka, literature

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Your gone

Your gone you've left me, Left me alone in this world. This world of Hell, Hell is full of pain. Pain, you've just created more, More tears. Tears in which you've caused, you've caused me so much pain now that your gone. Your gone, you committed suicide, Suicide, you didn't have to die. Die, death, no longer here, passed on, Passed on to some place. Some place to start all over again.

Weak by AmalaNyoka, literature

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Weak

We are born as babies, we are weak, All we can do is roll around crawl and babble. We grow taller and older as children we are weak, We walk but still stumble we talk but know little words. We grow into teenagers we are even weaker, All we know is what we see the world sucks we want to die, some of us die and leave us in pain, we are weak. We grow up and are adults, we know words but are weak, We have a loss of words, we struggle, we don't know what to say we are weak. We become old, we know so much but we are weak, We know so much but we don't know it all we cant even take care of ourselves. We are weak.

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God by Priest-of-blades, literature

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God

You don't know god These words piss me Off more than any other words On the face of the face of the planet When was the last time you looked at god? Yes, yes we all know that you found Christ But I don't know god? What in the hell makes you think that I have fought with more demons than St Michel I faced the morning star and didn't even shudder You read about hell I've been there You read about miracles I've seen them If I don't know god then you don't know shit You believe that god is just for you But I know that god capital G.O.D Cares not for what church you go to but What you adhere to in you hart

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Artist // Literature

United States
Deviant for 18 years
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Current Residence: some little town in Colorado
Favourite genre of music: all
Wallpaper of choice: neon green and black paint
Skin of choice: Snake
Favourite cartoon character: Homer Simpsons
Personal Quote: love is like a reptile if you cut of its tail it grows a new one

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

MCR, Evergrey, Hawthorne Heights, Senses Fail

Favourite Writers

Poe, Christian Bok, chris baer

Favourite Gaming Platform

PS2

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Pen

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poetry, music, speech and debate, snakes

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AmalaNyoka

Apr 2, 2008

CAFFEINE ADDICTION

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ok so RED BULL has come out with a new drink. its call KID BULL, theyre targeting 9 year olds and under. it has the amount of caffeine as two shots of espresso does. they are selling it at toy stores and other retail stores. Studies show that 80% of Americans consume at least one caffeinated drink a day, and 50% of Americans consume 3 or more cups of coffee a day. now companies are targeting children, the claim "Kid Bull is parent approved" because it has 100% daily recommended vitamin C yet they seem to neglect to mention the effects that caffeine has on the developing body of a child. if you find a problem with this spread the message, the

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AmalaNyoka

Feb 19, 2008

NEED HELP!

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ok people entering another poetry competition need some honest feed back on a poem I'm tired,   I lay down. Tick, tick,   Time passes as I close my eyes,   Dreams? What are those? I fall into a world of black emptiness. Waking to a world of darkness I am rested as usual,   But I'm still tired. Staring out the window fresh snow covers the cars,   Inside I'm cold enough to freeze the oceans/ The silence of the early morning draws me in,   Sighing I climb into the shower. Water pouring down my body mixing so gently with the tears,   Both washing away the thoughts of yesterday. Preparing for the day,   The mirror shows my

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AmalaNyoka

Feb 11, 2008

HELL YA

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i got accepted into CSU PUEBLO.

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EmandM

Nov 26, 2007

THIS IS A HUG CERTIFICATE ! !

Send one to all your friends who you think deserve a hug (which, hopefully includes the person who sent it to you)!!

You might send it to your enemies as well!
It'll really make them stop and think!!!

If you don't receive this back, nobody likes you, and they wish you'd stop bugging them!

If you receive this back 1 time, open up! Find more friends, enemies, or enemies pretending to be friends

If you receive this back 2 times, you're off to a good start! (Unless you sent it to yourself! That's cheating!)

If you receive this back 3 times, you're a good friend.

If you receive this back 4 times, you're truly loved as a friend!!

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YOU'VE BEEN HUGGED!

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!
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